carpe diem

I'm not sure whether you're unknowingly giving me the cold shoulder, of if you're mad at me. I know you usually do this to a lot of people and I know it's normal (?) but it really bothers me now that I never really get to see you. I don't know what you're thinking. I'm sure it's nothing and I'm just being stupidly paranoid (because all of a sudden you don't need me as much as you did a few months ago), but what ever it is (if there even IS anything) I hope this weirdness (in my mind) goes away soon enough. And I apologize if I mad you upset this morning with my decision.