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I feel better

I was a little upset about something regarding Zemil... and funny thing is, 3 minutes after that, my calendar reminder for an up coming event goes off. The event was "Zemil Loves You Lots".

I really needed that.

I just realized actually how disgusting I looked...

heh... well i haven't felt such great disappointment in such a long time, it just really stings.
and makes me upset, but maybe it's just me.
should i just ignore it? or let him know...

GOLDFISH

Got a new family member! Unfortunately my mom bought the wrong type of goldfish so when I put them together... they kept on fighting :c. I ended up having to separate them into two different bowls. But even then, they're still trying to get at each other LOL...

University

I don't really have much to say... except that University is slowly taking it's time to becoming better and to being my "norm"; but for now, it still feels like awkward summer camp I don't want to go back to. But don't get my wrong... everyone here is super nice and all but I'm just home sick for my boyfriend and for my friends... and just being able to be so happy and chill in a perfectly knitted group of awesome people.
Other than that I've occupied a lot of my time with homework and what not... to the point where half the people in my res don't even know I live here and the rest that I do say hi to.. are not even my friends. I have no friends in this residence... so it's a little bit saddening. Oh well.............
Hard thing is, I live in an arts residence... filled with art kids, while I am taking science. So while I am in my room doing all my readings, they're out playing or hanging out together.

Sad life...
I just miss highschool.

1ST DAY OF FROSH

I hate having so many feelings. I want to talk to someone about them, but it makes me feel like I'm a pathetic little girl complaining about little things or about everything. I don't want people to see me as that, so I keep it all to myself. I hate getting hurt by little things, things that I don't even know if other people would be bothered by. I hate it though. I hate feeling this.

Is it my fault? Is it always my fault? I don't know... perhaps it is. But still, this feeling I get really hurts me. Maybe I'm imagining it all, and just making myself feel this way or maybe its real and I deserve it.

Thinking About You

My friend's fan-made video of the song Thinking About You by David Choi.
Featuring....... my boyfriend and I haaha. They needed a couple and the first two they thought of had work during the day so they came to us.
It was pretty fun doing this for them though I usually don't enjoy being the subject... I'm mostly the one behind the camera. But it was pretty easy and fun once I got the hang of it :). Yea... and he was just a natural... him and his poker face while I laughed every second of everything I had to do.
Well... I like this :D ehhe

I don't like people seeing how insecure I am and how very self concious I am of myself.